ABOUT THE BOOK
Ultimate Ecstasy is a story of juicy, spicy and thrilling journey to Eternal Infinite Bliss. It is an exploration into the genesis of cosmic manifestation and how a man unravels the eternal mystery called God, the apex of Super-consciousness, in a very scientific way without getting associated with any religion, and passing through all negative instincts like violence, lust, sex etc. and having encounter with gruesome incidents like the Godhra train burning and consequent notorious communal riot in Gujarat, India, the terrorists attack on World Trade Tower in America etc.
When the vast is available, then, why to settle for the petty and worthless things? Life is the highest possible precious opportunity bestowed to us by the divine existence, then, why to waste it for trifling and transient things? That’s why, the main character of the novel sets a highest goal for himself to realize the vast, eternal, profound divine place, a never ending supreme celebration constantly going on in the subtle realm of this mystic stupendous existence. He is passionate to discover his real Self. The Self that incorporates the whole cosmic manifestation; the Self which pervades within and beyond the space-time continuum; the Self that exists everywhere, but, does not confine itself to anywhere! The Self, the culmination of all intelligence, prudence, the Self which itself is attribute-less but is latent with all possible attributes! The Self, the source of the entire manifestation, but, which itself rests in zero, the self-the supreme silence; the Self which contains all polarities, but, which itself is beyond the entire crux of polar realities. The human race can not have any other greater mission than to realize the divine Self.
“Ultimate Ecstasy” is a story of a man having the same mission.
Though, the book is in the format of a fiction; but, in fact, the content is a treatise of scientific spirituality showing actual path to readers having simoom in their heart and being to explore and realize God.
SCINTILLATING IN DREAM
I still wanted to sleep for one or two more hours, but the hangover of the dream which I had seen a few hours ago was so overwhelming that I was dragged to my sense. Unwillingly I got up; my wife and kids were still in deep trance. The face of my wife was glowing in the light of night bulb with the radiance of profound devotion to her kids and family. There appeared another process too on her face, coming from within her. While operating on computers as the vast log of data creep scrolling continuously, same way a process was going inside her. The fatigue of the daylong drudgery seemed to be steaming off by and by. The kids appeared so innocent and cute that it gave the impression that they were quite ingenuous; while daytime both of them are so naughty that they are always on nerves.
Finding everyone sleeping, I felt secluded. I constantly watched the wall in front of me and then, by and by I again slipped into the ambit of the same dreaming alley through which I had a juicy excursion during my sleep.
“She looked dressed up in a complete transformation. In her royal blue outfit and the swanky spectacle she was giving a totally different guise. Holding the palm of her little daughter, she was pushing the earth back and gently putting her steps forward step by step. The whole landscape was giving her a royal look like a queen was having a walk in the lush green garden of Buckingham Palace.
I gazed at her; I was just charmed, spelled and electrified. Her confident move was like she had a winning domination in a high profile summit of the representatives of all powerful states. A smile curved her sleek juicy lips into a seductive shape. She moved forward in a mild galloping style to conquer the whole world. I was simply mesmerized with her each and every bit of her physical and demeanor structure. I too made myself move forward, stretching my palm to have hold of her beautiful, delicate and sexy hand. As I took her hand in mine, a sensation generated in the navel of my body and gripped me all over. Being amused and mesmerized in my sensation I put my other hand on her shoulder and taking her together I promenaded into heaven. The touch of her body produced a heat giving me a warm sensation. I deliberately made my body touch hers here and there to have intense feel of deep sensation throughout my body. Each and every touch was a premium event. Each and every molecule of air between our bodies was getting highly ionized. May be she also was undergoing the same sensation. We moved, moved and kept moving until there came a corner of the fencing plants.
We sat on the grass. Her daughter un-trapped her palm from her mothers' and ran away to the outstretched horizon of unrestrained joy and jubilation. Now, we were alone and together. She leaned a little bit with the support of her arms. I saw her, and then moved my sight down to the earth. A different sort of hot air started encompassing both of us. She lied down on grass. I made myself leaned, brought myself closer to her, a little bit closer and finally in her contact. A heat wave was evaporating from her body. I happened to put my lips on hers at once to witness the heat coming out of her body. I felt intense; but, anyhow managed to protect myself from being engulfed into the stretch of fire. I gripped her and pierced my vision into her eyes. Our eyes had an unexplained contract. We got up and moved towards the bungalow. The silence between us was having a boiling experience. We stepped into her bedroom. As the door was shut, we had ribs breaking hug of each other and finally threw ourselves onto the bed. Keeping her in my grip, I undressed her, took off each and every cloth from her body. She appeared from her head to leg like a dazzling diamond and emeralds; a vast outstretch of priceless precious treasure. Each and every part of her body was shining with a bright sexy luster.
Before me was lying the vast unending infinitely outstretched ocean. I undressed myself hurriedly and had a jump into the turbulent vertigo allowing myself to be whirled around to an uncharted surge to infinity. I made myself creep over her nude body. The smooth flow of my body over hers and the scintillating strike of my chest to her erotic conical projection made me lose sense to go mad and frenetic. Embracing our body violently, we tried to squeeze our bodies into one. We made ourselves climb the crest of the surf and finally got drowned down into the fathomless depth of the vast majestic ocean.”
The sudden jump from highest space onto the earth awakened me from the dream. The throw into the real world made me bruised and smarting very badly.
ON THE WINGS OF HEART
TO UNKNOWN
“Good morning, Sir,”
“Hey Jennifer, very good morning! How are you?” Raj asked.
“Fine, thank you, Sir.”
“Jennifer, I want to share something very important with you. Can you spare some time with me?”
“Why not, Sir? It's rather my pleasure.”
“Not here. Would you mind going with me on a long ride?”
“Not at all, Sir.” She replied with smile.
He took her to the car and asked her to sit inside. He drove towards the outskirts of the city. As he drove hardly for 15 to 20 minutes, he found the traffic jam ahead. There was a huge gathering at the crossing. A man, who appeared like a lunatic fellow, was abusing the crowd, and people had simply thrashed him down.
Raj came out of the car and went inside the crowd to inquire about the fuss. He protected the bearded man, asked the crowd why they had been beating him. They replied that he was abusing everyone without any reason. When Raj asked him why he had been abusing everybody, the man started laughing.
He said, “I am not abusing anyone. I am just muttering some words. It's these people who are drawing ugly meaning from the words. The word in itself does not have any meaning. You associate a feeling, certain interpretation and meaning with a word. If the meaning which you associate with a word is offending, what can I do? You try to confine this vast life into a few words, how can one reach the Ultimate Truth which lies beyond all interpretations, beyond all expression?” the man asked.
Everybody was stunned with the philosophic question of the so-appeared lunatic man. Raj felt like to have been thrown into an unknown space. He set the man free and asked the crowd to disperse. He narrated the whole incident to Jennifer, but she could hardly understand anything.
Raj and Jennifer were again in the same place, which they had visited earlier too.
“Yes sir, you wanted to share something with me?” she tried to take the initiative.
Raj was still in some outer world. He asked Jennifer “How prudent that man was? Could you understand him? We are having limited experience, words, opinion and expression. How can we reach the vast horizon of truth that lies beyond our perception? Jennifer, I wish to explore the divine truth of life which has not been so far explored. See, everything is silent here; but, if you go deeper into your being, you will find them to be indicating towards the infinite.
We are just busy in our day-to-day mundane affair of life, doing business, earning money, purchasing this or that. But, think of the whole cosmos, this whole universe. Earth is just like a small particle, if you see in the relative framework of this vast expansion. Still, we give so much of the importance to ourselves and to our day-to-day mundane affairs. Jennifer, I wish to explore the unknown, the vaster and deeper realm of this stupendous existence. I wish to expand the horizon of my inner perception with this vast outstretched cosmic expansion of the universe. Would you accompany me in this uncharted voyage to the unknown?” all of a sudden Raj put a proposal before Jennifer.
Though, she could not understand anything. To her Raj appeared like a creature of some other planet. That's why, she was probably mesmerized with Raj and wished to see the volcanic eruption of his heart from the close distance.
“Sir, I can't understand all these that you are saying. But I can see something happening deep inside you. And believe me; I really want to witness this unprecedented phenomenon. I wish to be the part of your expansion.”
“Thank you, Jennie, thanks a lot,” he happened to take her in his deeper embrace.
He was thumping with an unexplainable joy. Though both were on the earth planet; but they now were roaming somewhere else, in some other different part of the galaxy. The whole perception was quite ethereal, a celestial happening of an unknown world.
As time passed, they came back to the earth to the present. Now they could feel the bodily touch of each other. Raj got intense in his feelings. Having her into the strong hug he said, “Jenny, I feel like you are the part of my being. Just being with you takes me to an indescribable pleasure, a new bliss. Please, promise me that you won't leave me in between”.
Jennifer did not say anything. They kept kissing and smooching each other here and there on cheeks, on forehead, on throat, and wherever possible. They saw each other and again took each other in deep embrace and remained in that state for near about five to ten minutes. Then slowly they became normal. Their attention shifted from other to oneself, one's own being. That brought them to the present.
“Sir, I know some sort of restlessness is there in you. You are in constant search of something. Where exactly this search is destined to?”
“Jennie, that I also don't know. One thing I can say- this search is not for any material gain or physical pleasure. The deep eternal happiness, the bliss may be the drive of this search. Though, I am aware of the path. So many things are there which I feel can give the pleasure and I try to pursue them. I don't even bother about the social norms, the material calculations.
Earlier I was looking for a well-settled career. Today I am having a well-established business. The money which I earn is important to meet day to day requirement; but sometimes I feel that it is an unnecessary day to day repeated engagement. It is the same routine every day. I don't get deeper satisfaction just with the money.
The restlessness which I had in my being before starting the business, today I feel the same in spite of sound monetary position. When I fell into love with my wife Anamika, for two to three years till my marriage I was engrossed in a totally different world. Each moment she used to dominate my consciousness. After marriage till one year, I remained pre-occupied mentally with my wife, my family and day to day routine. But again, I started feeling the same restlessness.
To be honest when I see different women, I feel fascinated. I feel electrically charged. Initially I was in an ideological - moral fix. I used to think - whether it would not be a deception to my wife. But my approach was always to look for the absolute truth.
If I feel fascination for someone else, this is a reality, why should I deny this fact and restrict myself? Why I should not go for the new experience if it can give pleasure? Why this vast life should be tortured and suppressed with the day-to-day monotonous repeated experience. If I feel fascinated by somebody else other than my wife, this is an existential reality. Why it should not be accepted?
Of course, the pursuit of new relation-ship may lead to the social condemnation; it may disturb the family peace. But, if a pursuit, which the nature has bestowed upon me, is to be denied just for the sake of worldly convention, don't you feel - we are giving more importance to the artificial worldly understanding to the eternal process of this vast nature - what we call God?
How far it is justified to give more importance to a few people of our society than to God? I believe in being honest. I don't see any reason of not being honest to one-self for the sake of one or two persons who exist outside of your being. I don't mind of being dishonest to others, but it is just unacceptable to me to be dishonest with myself. If I like something or someone, I have guts to speak my mind. Others are not so much important that they should dominate and dictate the terms and conditions of my being.
The vast eternal truth cannot be confined to the man-made social framework. My destination now is not the society and social prestige, but my destination is this vast and beautiful existence, the nature, and the cosmos. I wish to explore the genesis, the purpose and the final destination of my being. And suppression and compromise are not my ways. I don't wish to suppress anything in my being, whether it goes according to the social norms or against it, now I am hardly bothered about it.
Morality and idealism, in my opinion, is the belief of the society. And the vast truth of this existence lies beyond the confinement of our social, cultural and religious beliefs. While talking to you one thing I have understood clearly that I am not born just to behave like a tool or instrument of the society. Individuality is now my religion. I have to proceed ahead with myself.
In this journey I wish if I could have someone else too who should have his/her own search, who should have the same restlessness as I am having, who should have the same guts to move on one's own path, so that we could share each other freely without having any barrier in between. I expect the same from you.”
“Sir, I don't know what is your final destination, but, one thing I can see that one road starts from you which goes to unknown. I have seen the hollowness of this social structure also and I am clear that it's better to explore the unknown than simply wasting the life for the known, which is devoid of substance.
I am ready to move on the path that emanates from you and goes to the unknown. Now I can understand the word-devotion and dedication and I am willing to dedicate myself, my life in your path, no matter, what may be result. But I am having some questions, some doubts in my mind and if you don't take it otherwise, I would like to ask it”, now Jennifer opened herself.
“Yes, ask whatever you like without bothering whether I may like it or not,” Raj was curious.
“As you said you felt fascinated towards other woman and you proceeded to pursue the new relationship. If your wife does the same, would you accept it?” Jennifer looked into his eyes.
“Honestly speaking, same is my question from myself. So many times, I thought about it. To be honest, when I visualize my wife on the same path having relationship with some other man, it certainly disturbs my inner atmosphere. Nobody likes it, that's why, such is our social custom and regulation. But, I want to understand it- why on the one side I wish to have relationship with someone, at the same time I can't accept my wife to be doing the same,” he paused for sometimes and further continued “but, one thing I am telling you honestly, if my wife is having the same restlessness which I am having and if she wishes to have relationship with somebody, now I won't stop her.
Though it may not be so smooth to me, but now I can tell you, I won't stop her at all, nor will I develop any negativity against her. Jennie, I am thankful to you that while talking to you, I got rid of this complex which I was having in my inner self,” Raj came to a stop.
A silence prevailed for some time. Jennifer was engrossed somewhere. Then, she suddenly asked,” Where I stand in your life now?”
Raj remained silent for a few moments, then, he lit a cigarette. After having one or two puffs, he said, “Jennie, if you are having the same exploration, then, you are attached to me throughout my consciousness. Maybe, while interacting with you, I might have got attracted to you even physically and in future also it is possible that I may feel a physical lust in myself, but, please believe me, I will never force you for anything; nor I would try to take any undue benefit of my or your position.
My relationship with you will be always mutual to the extent you may like. If you wish to develop any relationship with somebody else, I won't stop you for that also and I won't develop any negative attitude towards you. What just I want from you that you try to live your life in your own terms without getting influenced either by society or even by me.
Life has a vast domain; don't restrict it to the dead social structure. At every stage, I would stand by your side till you continue to respect your own as well as my individuality.
When you do something being compelled by the society or general belief, then, my way is different from yours.
See, my whole and sole urge is to explore the zenith that lies beyond the social and self-belief and narrow attitude. And to reach to the vast outstretched insecure ocean, courage and guts are required.
Till you are having these guts and courage, I can go with you to any extent, no-matter what is your path, what is your action, how is your inter-action with me. Till you are my friend, my companion in this vast uncharted journey to the unknown, you exist in each and every bit of my consciousness. You are equally important to me, as is my own existence is for myself.
“Let me ask you my question in a very specific term – now I am in your path, because I also have developed the same curiosity, the same urge towards life. As I am living alone, I will live the same way. If you wish to live with me, you can do so, though it is not my demand from you. Being honest, I am telling you - now I have lots of attraction towards you and while interacting with you so closely, I may get physically involved with you; I may even get pregnant. Suppose I get pregnant, in that case what you will do?”
“Jennie, my darling, my love, if you get pregnant and if you wish to give birth to the child, I will not hesitate in accepting in public that it is my child. I am his/her father. I will contribute to my level best in bringing up the child.
But, try to understand one thing very clearly - at no point of our relationship, we will ever interfere in the individuality of each other. Even if you become the mother of my child, we both will accept and bear all responsibility of being parents. Even after all these things also, if you or I develop any relationship with other, we won't create any fuss for each other, we won't expect a marriage or husband-wife sort of relationship with each other.
But, rather at every point of time we have to preserve our individuality. We will have the guts to accept whatever happens between both of us. Whatever will be there between us, we will accept it publicly. I suppose you are getting me?”
“If what you are saying, you are honest, then I can go with you to any extent”, Jennifer was now confident of herself and her future course of action for her life. She happened to get embraced with him.
“Jennie, my darling, I love you, I just love you, my sweetheart”, Raj took her in his embrace.
“Now I feel myself fortunate that I got a person like you in my life. You have given me a new meaning of life. Whatever has happened earlier in my life, now I don't have any regret or any complain.
Now, can I call you Raj rather addressing you by Sir?” Jennifer asked kissing him.
“Yes, of course. Now onwards call me Raj only. Sir is stupid and absurd word”, he replied kissing her on her cheeks.
They both were amazed and delighted on the new dimension of their life.
